CHAPTER 2. Rant on life as a final year student

 

 

Well! Hello there! Long time no see! (That sounds so normal...Usual and boring..meh)
Hope you guys missed me! I appreciate all the messages by the way! They were cute!
Procrastination and existential crisis hit me hard after my 1st semester in college. 
Ok- that made my college life sound bad-

IT ISN'T! JJ Boi and Radish (Mr. Intimidating you all! I changed his name, he ain't intimidating anymore...well sometimes...) are doing great! The rest I mentioned in my previous blog? Well, they are around. Haha. Many of you know that the friends we are close to initially wouldn't be the ones we end up being best friends with. Surprisingly, Radish and JJ Boi stayed! To be completely honest, I thought they would leave too, every time my mom or dad used to talk about how friendships change over time, I always thought I would somehow end up being alone considering my weird awkward confusing personality. But they stayed, through thick and thin and I so freaking appreciate their presence in my life. It's the smallest of things they do that give me the reassurance that I unknowingly needed. It felt nice to have genuine friends after a long time...well, a lifetime, to be honest. It feels unreal sometimes, but I know that I would fight through anything to make sure we work things out if shit goes down. They are the brothers I needed in life and was gifted. (Hopefully not another lesson though...haha...lemons..remember?)

Well, this isn't an appreciation blog post but a life update- soooo let's move on.

 
Anyways, the reality of life had been hitting hard on my face recently. A lot of times. (Like usual) Writing a blog and keeping you guys updated was the last thing on my mind. Don't worry, I still love you guys. Haha! It's just the lemons that these random Pinterest quotes were talking about, you know 'when life throws a lemon at you' one? 
Because of all the weird existential crisis I had, I deleted all of my blog posts. Call me weird but it's like all of us archiving our old cringe posts on Instagram that we uploaded once when we thought it was a good/cool one.

So! Life updates!

I made a lot of friends. Ya, I am gonna talk about friends again. Cause literally that's all that is happening in my life right now. Like I can't just talk about coffee or Starbucks or my new koala stuffie I named kissy, or my journey to somehow become a freelancer as a hobby...
wait-
I could talk about that.
Meh.
Let's talk about friends!
Starting from Ms.Pretty, my girlfriend, deep, Christmas tree, and more. 
Yep! Your girl is taken. Naa just kidding. Or am I?
HAHAHA!

Let's talk about Ms.Pretty, 
that Lil pretty human and I stumbled across each other because of my best friend, Mr. Intimidating- NO! RADISH! 
Ms.Pretty and I texted soooooooo much! It was crazy! We had sooo many common traits it freaked us out!
She is a darling and an angel the world must protect. 
We had a girl's day out recently, with just us and we had these amazing burgers and chocolate brownies while gossiping about everything and anything! Sadly, she is from another college, so we rarely meet but when we do, IT"S THE BEST!

Next on the list is my girlfriend. 

Exciting huh? She is my girlfriend! That says a lot by itself.
You'll know my standards for a girlfriend or boyfriend is way too high to reach, but guess who didn't even have to go on her tiptoes? My girlfriend-
Wha- bruh- I just realized that I didn't come up with a normal nickname for her like I usually do-
maybe because my brain stops working when she is around? *smirks*

Well, jokes aside. Unfortunately, she ain't my girlfriend (sadly) and this isn't me coming out of my nonexistent closet. I am as straight as a pole, not tall as one but straight as one ok- not that straight either, I slouch like pretty much everyone- like how you are right now while reading this..or not.
Again jokes aside, my baby is an introvert just like me, we were definitely not that close in the beginning because of how awkward we are with well- EVERYONE. That was until we both ended up third-wheeling people *cough* around us. We eventually turned ourselves into a couple and got closer and we have been inseparable since. We share the same opinion on things and get weird vibes at the same time (scary I know), and we are also planning to study abroad together!! When all of our extroverted friends talk to people they know, we mostly huddle together and talk about random stuff and be in our own little world, cause who would wanna be involved in highly social battery-draining convos with strangers? not me. but definitely our extroverted besties (*cough* JJ and Radish).

Next on the list?

Deep! She is my girlfriend's best friend! She is that cool kid with cool-colored hair! She is so fun to be with and talk to, she is one of those people you would wanna talk to if you were strangers. AND THAT'S BIG COMING FROM ME! I noticed her before in my English class, she never talked to anyone and would use her sanitizer in class which would remind me to use the sanitizer and I would give it to radish too, haha. When JJ joined offline, he started talking to everyone and anyone...scary- I know! While he was at it, he and radish befriended her too! I was scared to talk to her at first but then eventually we clicked! SHE WAS SO KIND! Since then, my college group of besties included two girls- my precious Girlfriend and Deep!

Next comes the friendly hooman who can read people's minds and likes to analyze. HAHA! Just kidding. He is CHRISTMAS TREE aka CHRISTOPHER. No. That's not his name. (you guys can be so naive *proud smile*) Not gonna lie, it was a little nerve-wracking to talk to him in the beginning cause he was Radish's very close friend so I didn't want him to hate me and he is an ambivert. One day during lunch break, he approached me like every other normal human being would and took the risk of listening to my unicorn stories which would obviously make me talk or rant..haha. He was one of those people who actually listened to me, and that was so kind (*sniffs*- na I don't sniff, me ain't that emotional- jk) and he was soo tall, because of that I ended up calling him Christmas tree and later(after Christmas) Christopher, haha. He is so friendly and kind, he is like those golden retriever characters in the books some of us read, but like a mature one who understands stuff. You know? You don't? Well- ok.

AND THEN comes LELE and DIO! They sit with me and Esliiii in class!! You'll remember Eslii?
YEPP!!! She is the one! I have soo many 'relatable' convos with these humans, like!!!! We are awkward as hell sometimes! And in class, we are always sleepy, hahaha! If I feel sleepy, I already know that one of them is sleepy too! I am very bad at writing neat notes when the professors dictate em notes, Lele or Esli always comes to the rescue!!! So freaking grateful for their existence! They are very caring and kind and they always listen to me rant and laugh at my jokes even if it is bad! EXACTLY! THEY ARE THAT AMAZING! HAHA!

And the many more includes all my other friends who I haven't named...

I know- major betrayal. But I have been a little sloppy recently.
I have to name
1. Radish and Christmas tree's best friend
2. JJ Boi, Radish, and my mutual loud friend.
3. Our Tall Basket Ball playing friend (ya, he is tall)
4. Christmas tree's classmate who I started acquainting with recently
5. Our junior who actually goes to the gym and is a vegetarian.
6. Ms.Pretty's friends who I came across recently.
7. ......

wait-
WOAH- THAT'S A LOT OF PEOPLE!
WHEN THE FUDGE DID I START TALKING WITH ALL OF EM JUST LIKE THAT-?!
.....
wow. ok.

Moving on!
With stuff that isn't about friends.
My brother left for college, and my home feels lonely sometimes, but it's okay. I can't always be the emotionally unstable older sister-
ya, I am the older one and yes he left before me, but he'll come back after college. And no, it isn't something we feel awkward about, why? We are Indians..*smiles* anyway- we have more stuff to support our decision tho-!
food? ask mom.
business talk or suggestions? ask dad.
money? ask both.
cuddles? ask both.
any emergency? ask both.
feeling lonely? annoy both.
emotional support? ask both.
opinion? don't ask parents, you might already know what the answer would be.
and so much more!
I already know that many people would come at me for whatever I just said here but whatever.

What's another life update? I am officially a final-year college student.
......
I KNOW! IT'S CRAZY! It still feels like it was yesterday when I sat here in my room and typed away and ranted to you guys about my first few days in college. And to realize that I wouldn't be meeting these amazing people on a daily basis after a year is a fact that I don't want to process yet. I already know that I am going to be a sobbing mess when it happens, and I am definitely not ready for it.

I am ready to move on in life and pursue my dreams and complete my training but just not the friends part. Maybe I'll be emotionally stable by then? hopefully.

I have been researching more about:-
1. Universities for my master's degree,
2. freelancing on Fiverr,
3. More on social media marketing
4. And many more.

I'll make sure I keep updating you guys as much as I can.

Thank you for listening or well-
reading yet another rant about friends and life.

Yours,

The Post-it Girl